today i signed up for transster.com to see what i'll be getting myself into, in terms of surgery. i know my chest isn't quite small (lol "quite small", i'm a goddamn C cup) enough to qualify for keyhole, so double incision with nipple grafts it is. the only thing i'm still snagging on is what happens after, with scarring and the like. even the incision scars aren't too terrible, but the dog ears. not down. they fucking disgust me. if i end up with those i will fucking die. i didn't really realize just how much surgery would be, but i know now that i have to start saving. apparently revisions are free with some surgeons, but i don't know about brownstein, who's my top choice right now. i wouldn't mind a cali trip for him. fischer's cheaper and closer, but i think he's overrated as hell.
i've been making some observations lately at work. for some reason, old navy seems to attract a lot of transguys and butch lesbians (i can only list both because i genuinely can't tell the difference at this point, unfortunately). and when i ring their purchases, i'm always polite, always friendly and talkative. but never, and i do mean NEVER have i had a positive experience with them. they don't make eye contact, they don't converse, hell. half the time they interrupt me midsentence. i can only assume it's because they think that being quiet and uninterested makes them appear more masculine. well, i hate to say, it doesn't help one bit. most of my biomale customers are chatty and jovial. i understand the misconception that if you don't put much of yourself out there, there's not as much for people to read into, but when you talk in a lower voice when you interrupt me, you still just look like a rude transgendered person, not an aloof guy trying to get his shopping over with. maybe you're just nervous and afraid of people's reactions to you. i get that. but it's only going to be worse if you're mean, you know?
i hate ending blogs. peep this baby armadillo instead.
i had DI with brownstein 6 months ago and have dog ears.
ReplyDeletemy friend had DI with brownstein in '07, and his dog ears have gone away, but it took a whole year for them to go away.
when he was 9-months postop, he emailed dr. b with his photos and asked how well he was healing (without mentioning the dog ears). dr. b said it looks good, and that the flabby things are called dog-ears and will go away with time. my friend is now 1.5 months postop, and has a completely flat chest there, needed no revision.